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Sorry I’m Late, I Didn’t Want to Come

by Jessica Pan · 368 pages · ~6.5 hrs

Psychology & MindSociety & Culture

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Jessica Pan, a self-described introvert who prefers books and her couch to social gatherings, documents her experiment in living like an extrovert for one year. She systematically confronts situations that terrify her: talking to strangers, performing improv comedy, attending networking events, and even participating in a silent meditation retreat where she cannot retreat into her usual inner world. Pan writes with humor about her discomfort, capturing the specific texture of social anxiety - the rehearsed conversations, the post-event autopsies, the physical symptoms of dread. But the book is more than a catalog of awkwardness. Pan investigates the science of introversion and extroversion, interviews researchers about personality and social behavior, and examines why modern life often seems designed for extroverts. She discovers that some of her avoidance stems from fear of rejection rather than genuine preference for solitude, and that pushing past discomfort sometimes leads to genuine connection. The experiment takes place as Pan moves from New York to London, adding the challenge of building a social life in a new country. The book offers solidarity to fellow introverts while gently challenging the assumption that social avoidance always serves one's authentic self. Pan's willingness to embarrass herself in pursuit of connection makes this a funny and occasionally moving account of one introvert's quest for a fuller life.

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